Archives for the month of: September, 2011

…when it comes to participating in anything that involves moderate to strenuous physical activity. Seriously. If you’re Asian, you know what I’m talking about.

I mention this because when I transferred to my new school (I’m an incoming 10th grader), I decided to play on my school’s basketball team. I know, right? But before you get started with the: “Whaaat?? chu crazy, gurlfrangg!!!!” I didn’t think it’d be a bad idea, especially since I’ve been playing basketball for almost five years.

For a Japanese-American league. Now you can call me an idiot.

That’s not even the worst of it. I signed up for basketball thinking not much more than, “Oh, I’ve been playing basketball for a while now, and I think I should be able to keep up.” It’d be an understatement to say I was horribly mistaken. The school I used to attend was not at all an athletic powerhouse; the girls’ basketball teams were the worst in their division. I did not know this. So I incorrectly assumed that the team at my new school could not be much better than the team at my old school.

After the first day of practicing with my new team, I realized exactly how good they really are. They’re not “good” or “pretty good” or “pretty damn good.” They’re “really FREAKING scary good.” Lo-and-behold, I am now a member of one of the top 10 high school girls’ basketball teams in the country, the 9th team, to be precise.

I hope it doesn’t come as too much of a shock to you when I mention that I embarrassed myself on and continue to embarrass myself every day since the first day of practice.

I know a lot of Asian girls who play basketball, and it’s possible that they can really compete against girls of all other races in all kinds of sports. So perhaps the “Asheann no good at supohts” stereotype is only applicable to the likes of me. I think I should stick to being a nerdy Asian.

But of course, that isn’t going to work out too well for me either, is it? (;

This is a tough stage, folks: realizing oneself really, really (for lack of better words) sucks at something he or she initially set out to do. But it’s going to get better. I guess I have to really believe in that in order for it to come true.


…that I applied for a fellowship sponsored by an Asian-American film community (spent a good 3-4 hours working on that darned application), waited for the program to contact me (the website specifically states that applicants will be contacted the first week of september), waited for the program to contact me, waited for the program to contact me, waited for the program to contact me…

Basically, I din get no fellowshiep. Dawrn.

I know it’s been a long time since I’ve updated. I constantly reminded myself to post all summer and constantly decided to put it off…so…well, yeah. School’s started and I’ve got a ridiculous workload (the result of being horribly below the Asian standards and deciding to take 2 APs and 2 honors classes), but I’ll try to get some random posts up here and there.