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Every weekday at 7a.m., I – very grouchily – get dressed and munch on cereal, when I’d really rather be sleeping.  Why, you might ask?  I have to go to school!  At noon, rather than enjoy a delicious lunch with my friends, I hole up in the library, studying…for school.  When I get back home, I spend hours working on my homework that’s due the next day.  Sometimes, I stay awake until the early hours of the morning, frantically trying to study for that darned test that I forgot about or finish that essay.  

Even when I’m not at school, I’m surrounded by it: with all of my tests, assignments, and projects, I’m constantly swimming in a pool of school.  Almost constantly.  But when I’m not physically working on something school-related, I’m definitely thinking about something school-related.  This is junior year!  I have no time to be thinking about a social life!

…Well, I guess that isn’t entirely true.  I do have a lot of work, but it’s really important to find a balance between spending time with friends and doing work.  I think I would go completely insane if all I did was work, work, work.  But with my junior year coming to a close, I’m actually really worried about college.  My grades aren’t anything to be proud of, I don’t play a sport, and I’m really not involved in any clubs……

At this point, I think my parents have almost given up on me.  When your Asian mother starts telling you, “You can always go to community college!” – there’s something seriously wrong.   She might be okay with that, but I’m not.  I’m not!  Never!

And that’s the most pathetic part: I’ve set some really high standards for myself, and now that I’m struggling to meet them, I get very easily discouraged.  I guess “below the Asian standards” goes without saying at this point (I’ve been below the Asian standards for as long as I can remember now); the real issue now is that I’m below my own standards.  I have to work super hard!

On the up side of things, spring break is approaching, which means I’ll have plenty of time to……study.  

Joy…

#BTAS

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I plan on writing a little bit about the topic of diversity and some of the many different ways people perceive it, but I know it’s been a little while, so before I get into all that good stuff (oh yay, controversy!), I’ll quickly justify my Disappearance Off the Face of the Earth.

Now, normally I wouldn’t even bother to justify my Random Vanishings into Thin Air, but today is the exception as I actually have a decent excuse this time. As a matter of fact, I have multiple decent excuses, but only one in particular is worthy of my mentioning. Two words: spring break.

I already wasted about an hour of my life detailing the events of my break, so I naturally have absolutely no intention of wasting another hour of my life to do the exact same thing over again. Time is precious, folks, and I have procrastinating to do. But if you’re at all interested in reading about my awesome break, go right on ahead.

Onwards! Time is of the essence, my friends.

After returning from my trip to Italy (which — in case you haven’t yet done so — you can read about by clicking the link above), I had four days before I had to pack up again and head out on my school’s 10th grade retreat. This year’s retreat featured the complex matter of diversity, and let me tell you: when one throws a bunch of teenagers into the wilderness for a night and tells them to discuss the meaning of ‘diversity,’ there will be blood. Being myself one of said teenagers, I realize now that nothing good will come out of such discussion. The teenagers will not be diplomatic in expressing their opinions and thoughts–they will not even express opinions, for the ‘opinions’ quickly become ‘facts’. And no one person has the same ‘facts’ as another on a matter such as diversity.

I do not want to initiate a race war. I don’t like arguing with others about race and racism and the like. I am highly opinionated myself, and I do not like it when others tell me my opinions are incorrect. Opinions are opinions–let them remain as such.

But I digress; the discussion about diversity may not have been as productive as the school administrators might have hoped, but that isn’t to say the trip was ruined. I had a pretty decent time. As it turns out, there are people in my grade I didn’t even know existed up until yesterday, so it was nice to be able to meet some of them for the first time. I very much enjoyed bonding with my friends, although many of us certainly disagreed on the controversial issue of North Dakota University’s mascot, the Flying Sioux. In fact, I think we’re closer now than ever.

My school isn’t very diverse, and I’m not at all used to it. My previous school was very ethnically diverse, and I had become so accustomed to that environment that the sudden change threw me off a bit. It’s hard to tell what is considered offensive and what isn’t anymore, so I’m going to avoid getting too involved in diversity discussions from this point onwards. It’s not worth ruining friendships over.

Kay y’all, I’ll update again soon. Hopefully.

… 😀
~Hedgehog